Hey, life's not always going to go your way
So live it to the fullest is what I say.
Comic relief is here for you to savor
And may the odds be ever in your favor.
Something good today was that it was soooo much nicer outside than its been in so long. I didn’t get to play tennis but I did go outside to throw a baseball/softball around for an hour or so. It wasn’t anything special, but it just felt so nice being outside, doing a physical activity, and not freezing to my toes. Other than that, I did some studying and had to go to two group meetings so that was fun. This week is going to be really tough but hopefully everything will be alright. Again, something I need to keep reminding myself of is that God is in control and that all I need to give is my best and he’ll take care of everything for me. That’s what I’ll be aiming for I guess. Aside from that, I do have the YA retreat to look forward to this weekend. Soo excited about going and can’t wait to hear what God has to say to me through retreat
Something good today was that I went ice skating with some friends from IV today! It was kind of a last minute decision for me but it was so much fun ice skating with them. Admittedly, whenever I think of going to ice skate I think that its going to be kind of boring cuz all you’re really doing is skating around in a circle for an hour or so, but I always have a great time when I go hahaha. So I’m probably just not truly appreciating how much fun it can be. Anyway, after we finished ice skating we went to eat at frutti tutti which was as usual, great. Thennn I went to China Bistro with a couple other people for some awesome dumplingsss hehe. I also got some work done today too so at least I put most of my time to good use.
Note: Caleb is adopted
"For a time, Caleb and I were doing this thing where I would point at him across the room and yell, "I love Caleb!" Then he would look back at me and yell, "I love Daddy!"
One day we were doing this, and Caleb was laughing until all of a sudden he stopped, looked at me, and said, “You love me?”
I said, “Yeah, buddy, I do.”
And then he asked what seems to be his favorite question: “Why?”
"Because you’re my son," I said.
So he asked the question again: “Why?”
This time I thought to myself, Now that’s a good question. Out of all the children in the world, why is this precious little boy standing in front of me my son? I thought about all the factors that had come together to lead Heather and me to Kazakhstan and all the ups and downs we experienced in the process. There were times when we wondered if we were ever going to have kids. I teared up, and I could tell Caleb was confused, wondering if he should ever ask his daddy why again. But I looked back at him and said, “You’re my son because we wanted you. And we came to get you so that you hight have a mommy and daddy.”
Doesn’t it take your breath away for a moment to hear God say, “I love you”? To which we, in our sinfulness, must certainly respond, “Why?” And then to hear him answer, “Because you’re my child.” To which we ask the obvious question, “Why would I, a hopeless sinner, now be called your cherished child?” Only to hear him say, “Because I wanted you, and I came to get you so that you might know me as Father.”
"In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.” - 1 John 4:9-11
"No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord." - Romans 8:37-39
Something good today was that its Friday! I’m just happy that the week is over because its a long needed break from all my classes. I also didn’t have too much fun not doing great on my two exams this week but I’ve really been trying to change my mentality these past few weeks. I need to stop try to put everything on myself and thinking all the burden and responsibility is on me and just trust God. I know I need to do my best but a lot of times I just really don’t depict a life that depends on God. Rather I find myself depending on myself so much more and that’s something I want to change. Instead of basing my reliance on myself and defining my success on school, I want to rely more and more on God and define my success through glorifying God each day. It’s so hard to do all of this but its something I see myself truly needing to move towards.
Something good today was finally getting through the tough part of my week. Usually it’s over after wednesday but I had my diff. eq. exam today so it was kind of extended in a way. But yea, I’m just glad to be done with that stuff for this week at least. So as usual on thursdays I went to IV fellowship after my last class of the day. I don’t know what it is about IV that I love so much. Like I do have some really great friends there but based on that I should be going to KCM since I really already know pretty much everyone there. But there’s something about IV that makes me love going to fellowship every week and every week after. I just always feel so at home and comfortable with the people there and its a place I see myself in for the next 3 years and hopefully becoming one of the leaders too. I don’t know. I really thank God for the circumstances that placed me in IV because had my classes not turned out the way I originally wanted, I would probably be at KCM every week instead of IV. Not that it would be a bad thing, but I wouldn’t have met all these amazing people in IV had I been able to go to KCM from the beginning. It’s just crazy how these things turn out because I definitely think I’ve found my fellowship in college. It’s possible that I might not always be in IV but right now I feel like God is calling me to stay in IV so that’s what I’m going to do
Something good today was that even though Wednesdays are generally the busiest days of my week, I usually end up being pretty productive (although exhausted too). But as with last week, I met up with a friend of mine and the IV leader to have a mini Bible study and discipleship meeting. I really do enjoy doing this each week because even if its really tiring I really do want to keep focused on what’s important in my life. It’s tough now especially with all this work but I’ve been trying to focus more on God and not worry so much about school (while still doing my best). Anyway, it was fun. Got to go to my first IV Bible study afterwards since my cg didn’t have a meeting tonight and went to play basketball with them too. Aside from that, I kind of think I basically failed my bio exam :/ But its ok, I’m trying to keep the bigger picture in mind now haha
Something good today was that its the last day before Lent! For some reason, I’m actually kind of excited for Lent. This year, I decided that I would give up internet (not including school, church, or any other important things) so its a bit weird that I would be excited for that. But idk. While I’ve had waves of realization that I won’t be able to use youtube or watch any shows at all until easter, I’m still almost excited for some reason. Maybe its because this is the most difficult thing I’ve given up so far and that its like I’m challenging myself hahaha. Then again, I know that I’m not going to do it perfectly but still. Anyway, why I’m thinking about this is that I’m hoping the reason I’m excited is that maybe I’m excited for more free time to spend reading the Bible or starting/finishing the Christian books that’ve been lying on my shelf since last semester. I’m about half way through this great book called “Follow Me” by David Platt but haven’t gotten through all of it yet, so hopefully I can now that I have more free time. Idk. That’s what I’m hoping is my reason for being excited because I don’t want this Lent to be like the past ones where I just give up something but don’t learn that much or grow from the extra time I could spend with God. But yea, I’m definitely going to try making good use of my time. I will still be keeping facebook and tumblr though since I really don’t use either that much and especially since fb has all my class groups haha. On a side note, my hand is all cramped up now because I spent the last few hours copying down the entirety of this semesters bio notes onto a single side of a paper for my exam tomorrow. Wish me luck! :P